* Memories washed away together with the waves washing upon the shore *
This shell won't break.~ Water Nymph. Counter from 1st June 08
- Click on the words to open up the lost memories-
Saturday, February 28, 2009
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My new idol:
Hyori LeeAnd I am not lesbian. But come on she is hot for 30? And I am addicted to her songs. But she still cannot take the place of Olivia Lufkin and Anna Tsuchiya. 10 minutes_______Hyori LeeSighs, I wish I can train up my body to look like hers. :( Then again it's possible. I am going to train up soon. Talking about training, I have promised myself at least 5 weeks ago to train up until now, I haven't even stepped into the gym once to run. You see, I chanced across this article to train up one's running stamina (for women of course!) and then I was tempted to try. Despite the temptation I have failed miserably at dragging myself to the gym. Yes, and instead I slacked at home eating chips. And then from Thursday till now, I have been exercising in my room. Because tomorrow I have something on so yeah I need to learn how to do it. I am not going to blog it out here. It's um, very un-Amber-ish. Please for those who know what's going on or will be seeing what's going on, keep your big mouth shut or else I will just dig a hole and never come out again until a million years later. HAHA. I am just joking. I just hope I won't be a laughing stock after all that learning how to ____ for 3 days. But yeah talking about it, it makes me feel so much more awake and like I can do anything in the world. Hence my new motivation for exercise. (:Oh and yesterday I have a very strange dream. Well apparently _ confessed to me about liking me (NO THAT WON'T HAPPEN, OVER MY DEAD BODY!!!!) And then yeah he was all like "Didn't you get it and bluh bluh bluh. Cannot believe you are so dense" (which is what I have been telling people always and now I get what I have back)And yes, I really didn't know. I wish I didn't know but anyways in THE DREAM I knew. And because it was so unexpected that _ will like me. I just gaped at him and put my hand over my mouth to reduce the un-glamour moment of gaping and I made a funny noise. So yeah cause _ is a good friend so he thought that I was happy surprised (how stupid. He's the dense one!) and then he held my hand (eew yucks) and then we continue walking, with us holding hands (yes fine I admit, holding hands did felt good). And while walking and holding hands, he continued yakking and yakking and yakking about how dense I was about the signals he gave and about every single signal he gave (errr. how anal.). And then, I realised I was holding his hand (SLOW!) And then I yanked my hands free and was like,"EXCUSE ME? WHY ARE WE HOLDING HANDS?" He was like O.O. Before he could say anything, I shouted in his face again,"Get off me!!! I hate getting into relationships." Anyways, kind of described me. Yeah that's just one excerpt of the dream. I had a reallly long dream about me and everyone else around me. It's a very freaky dream that is full of commitments (I don't know why I had like 2 guys and 2 girls confessing to me). HAHA. I didn't know I am THAT attractive. And in case the dream is true, I don't like girls in that way, so don't even bother thinking. (as in one of the girls can actually be a possibility so yeah I am saying first)But anyways, it kind of gave me a new perspective on my life. That I really and absolutely HATE commitments. I don't care if love is sweet and good and yummy and warm and cuddly and whatever thing, the thought of commitment is scary. After all I can only be committed to: 1) Studies2) My husband (laptop)3) My baby (phone)4) Trying to get myself to exercise. Maybe I will commit one day but currently I fear it. Heck, I don't even know why am I blogging this out but yeah I just needed to blog it out. At least I am blogging something concrete and not something short and not some stupid quiz.Anyways, I feel like going for more beach cleaning, after yesterday's beach cleaning, my thighs feel so nice and firm. HAHAHA. If I go for beach cleaning every week, I think I will get very nice legs. Hang on, I need to get back my nice toned and flat stomach too! I want to look like Hyori Lee ok?And I don't get why the Calcutta song is stuck in my head. "Ca la ca la cu ta hey-oh hey-oh" "KA KU TA, I'm a taxi driver in KA KU TA. Taxi taxi driver in KA KU TA..." Shit and it's been stuck in my head since like forever! And I feel so freaking SIAN with STUPID WORK! I am dying to take a surfboard to ECP and try surfing, I don't care if there is no freaking wave. It's fun and someone did a little bit of surfing so WHY NOT? EIther that or scream like manic and runnnnnnnn all the way and SPLASHHHHH! So fun! HAHAHA. Thanks to litter picking yesterday, I am dying to go to a beach AGAIN. Also I need to resolve the problem of my tan lines :( Super unglam. Now my mum is not going to let me wear sleeveless. And MY TAN IS FADING :( :( :(Maybe I should buy self tanning lotion after all!! Anyways I can afford it with my own pocket money and I have always wanted to buy one. HAHA. Yes, ok I should. Fine I will get one after OBS and the Bowling good times thing. And make sure I have the holidays to look as tan as I want to. Anyways, no one is going to see me but my parents (except A). And if I look good, I shall live on self tanning lotion from now on. I hate being so PALE. Like some vampire.Bluh bluh typing crappy nonsense!
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A waterfall by the sea. Take me away to this place please. Yesterday's beach cleaning was good. :) At least I was back in touch with nature again. I feel so detached after the whole holidays where I did not even walked in those paths again. Maybe that's why I feel so "sian" every time. It's weird how my craving to go back to nature reserves is getting stronger every time. ECP is good too. I don't care if the beach is artificial, the waves are nice to look at. Next time if I feel stressed up, I shall just go to a beach to look at waves. Sounds good. (: And I thought I will never miss you again. But I did... I want to scuba dive with the fish and sharks, look at the corals. I want to trek the roughest mountains. I want to sail the whole world. I want to run with the cheetahs. I want to scream, shout, jump, run, leap. I want to sleep under the stars. I want to feel the wind against my cheeks. I want to bathe in the waterfall. <3>
Thursday, February 26, 2009
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Labels: U go girl___________Hyori LeeU go girl_______Hyori LeeGosh I am so tired. Founder's Day is a good break. But I still have heaps of homework, I don't even dare to look at it. What's worse is that all the clubs that I am in decided to buck up and push us to the extremes. But I joined and it's wrong to quit. You join, you go all the way. After all "returning were as tedious as go o'er". Sighs, this Sunday, I have all CCAs clashing together. How awesome! Anyways, so much work. Someone kill me now. LOLs. ANd mum is going on and on about cleaniness and hygiene again. Ow my ears. But I don't really care. Aiyah. Who cares? I actually have loads of stuff to type out but then I don't know what to type so heck. Sorry guys. I am so tired.
Sunday, February 22, 2009
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I am not going to blog that often anymore. My Mac is kind of spoiled and since the lappie is important I have no time to bring it to the service company too. Oh wait, I will bring it in the OBS week after all, I am not home and I won't be using it at all. :( :( :(Aiyah whatever. I am so heartbroken now. My mac is like my husband. :( :( :(:( :( :( <3
Saturday, February 21, 2009
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Ran ft Cyndi______I Love you
I felt the sudden need to blog again. So hello everyone! My neighbors are fighting again. Like really loud. All these while I just hear a woman screaming, so thought,"Maybe it's an employer screaming at the maid. Poor maid, don't deserve such an asshole employer..." And then I heard a guy screamed,"NOOOOOOO." And then I know it's a husband-wife fighting. Don't you dare call me kaypoh ok? THEY SHOUTED SO LOUD, I bet everyone heard them.And then I heard what the wife said,".... Yes I am nuts, I am nuts. Call me that..." And then I wonder if I would actually say something as hysterical as that. As in I have said that to people before. I think if I were to get married I might. Heck even if I were to get a boyfriend, I might probably say such things when I get exceptionally stressed. Despite changing from the scary secondary 4 self, believe that the madness in me isn't totally expelled. So yeah, people who have an emotionally abusive nature should not date haha! But stupid neighbors damn noisy. They have been shouting at each other for like ever since they move in. I think that apartment is cursed to disturb the rest of the apartments or something like that. The last owner fought a lot also and they drag their chairs around the house everyday (poor floor). And now the new owners are fighting everyday. AHAHA. I was so tempted to stick my head out of the window and shout,"SHUT UP LAH." HAHAHA. And my purpose for doing this: Just to see what her response will be. Omg I am so lame and KP. =.=Aish but it's scary to imagine myself to become like that. And I guess fighting at home is considered good? I was walking in marina square shopping and then this couple fought in the middle of the shopping centre. Like WTF. Everyone was staring at them and they felt NOTHING AT ALL. I would have dug a hole in the ground and make sure I will never come out after a 10000 years later. HAHA. Just joking. But honestly, I would have been super embarrassed. Probably there was a hidden camera somewhere but I doubt so because they didn't look very um, good looking. Aiyah whatever lah. I still want to go to Iguaza national park.
Friday, February 20, 2009
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不能说的秘密——————周杰伦做地好，拿了好成绩又这么样？内疚也永远就是内疚。抄来的东西也等于是偷来的。我真的好难受， 真的不能再守住这个秘密。。。这么办？
Thursday, February 19, 2009
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Because one day you will see me wearing this:
My family. Um, not that I am going to have one. I just one the top part. As for the bottom part, eew. HAHA. But OMG, I must have that as part of my uniform one day! Must must! The only thing is actually fun. 
And this is the place where I must frequent. And camp there. I really want to go there. Bathe in the waterfall. River raft. Explore the jungle. <3 Someone I need an escape. . . An escape to Argentina. . . To Iguza National Park. OBS will be a good escape. Hopefully. Just that shitting will be a major problem. Please tell me I don't have to dig a hole as my toilet. O.O But i got to learn. Yes yes. It shall be fun. As long as I don't end up arguing with anyone or being left out. Yupps. Cannot wait! And I must stop procrastinating. I need to exercise exercise!!! Yes. The only thing I have been doing is walking home from NUS. I need to train up for long distance running. SOMEONE BRING ME THERE!
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
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I don't want to do anymore work. I hate work. I hate it. I hate it. I HATE WORK. I hate IB. Get it? Stop forcing me to do whatever I don't want to do. I am doing my best. Can't I rest? No I cannot. I don't care about other people. I do whatever I want. Get it? I am past the point of caring of my grades. I CARE ABOUT MYSELF. Get it? Damn you work. I am happy without you. I am breaking up with work.
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
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We'll seek and find,We'll make and mind, However hard, we'll strive to reach the goal.I don't know why but the song has been stuck in my head every single time I do my work or whatever. Somehow it seems to be my only drive right now. The only source of my encouragement. The only thing that keeps me going. The only stay-alive pill. Of course there are many things to stay alive for but this is the main thing keeping me breathing. As much bad memories I seem to have there, I will never forget that place. Never. I will remember TK for as long as I live. I know I sound so fanatic. I never felt like that last year. But when the pressure sets in, I start remembering my TK days and then I move on. Also going back this CCA recruitment drive has made me miss TK even more. I really wish I can go to the camp. I really really really really wish to go back. :( It's like Media Club is so awesome now, unlike my time where everything is in so hazy and everyone (ok SOME people) was just fighting over political stuff and even sabotaged me. :( But now everyone seems to be so together :) and that makes me feel so happy too! Even the new juniors whom I don't know seem to be really friendly. I mean at least the game was not as dirty as before. Today I was reminded of TK again by a certain someone who encouraged us in that certain special way. And then I felt like I was back in that shoddy classroom hearing the same thing. Those words were just a mere nag last time but now they seem to be so precious. I don't know why. Maybe I have a different perception. But yeah because of the fact that I was reminded of TKSS by that certain person, my drive reignited again and then life seems more bright at once.Oh wells, I guess that is enough for today. I intended to blog about PEE and my dream which is really absurd. I don't even know why did I even dream of such an absurd, funny, sick (in the shit way) dream! Gosh it's too disgusting to be blogged out. Aiyah, if you want to know then you ask me la. But yeah HAHAHA!
Monday, February 16, 2009
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十分。爱－ Alex Fong and Stephy TangAlex Fong! Alex Fong! Alex Fong! <3>And I have been tagged again! 1. Where is your cell phone?Somewhere in the house...2. Your significant other?Don't have and don't plan to have. 3. Your hair?Rebonded. 4. Your favorite thing?Fried Bee Hoon! 5. Your dream last night?No dream at all. I have a light sleeper of late. 6. Your favorite drink?Tea. 7. Your dream/goal?Get good grades for IB, go into NUS so I can wake up late and walk to school. Uh all these are not as important as being a volunteer to protect Cheetahs (<3!)>8. What room you are in?Study room which is technically my room. 9. Your hobby?Trekking, Ice skating, Surfing the net though given the choice I rather be exercising. I promise cycling will be inside here soon! 10. Your fear?SPIDERS.Failing IB.11. Where do you want to be in 6 years?All over the world, I have no fixed plan. I am the travel kind. 12. Where were you last night?Home. 13. Muffins?I think it's blueberry or else. Nahhh. 14. Wish list item?Do well for IB. Work in National Geographic.(Notice it;s the same point over and over?) 15. Where you grew up?Singapore. 16. Last thing you did?Typed out the answer for question 15. 17. What are you wearing?Undergarments, spectacles, pink fila top, green TKSS shorts. (yes horrible match.) 18. Your TV?Living room and master bed room. Anyways, I don't watch TV unless my father wants to install Cable TV then I will bug him to let my watch National Geographic/ Discovery Channel EVERYDAY!19. Your pets?Don't want any unless it's a 1_ Pet Cheetah (OMGGGG love love)2_ Husky 3_ Japanese Spitz.I don't like other stuff. So shoo! I want a cheetah! 20. Your friends?What about them? They are nice people. 21. Your life?Average. Considered one of blessed people around. Just that I don't seem to be contented! 22. Your mood?My mood is =.=. No mood. Tired? HAHA. 23. Missing someone?mmm. Not really in a sense yeah.. 24. Car?Mini Cooper. I want the Mini Cooper. I don't like Mini Cooper S or whatever other models. And I want it to be white top red bottom- the classic Cooper color. If I cannot afford a mini, then I will buy a vintage mini or volks. If I cannot afford either, then hello! MRT. As for a BMW, I hear that it is good but then I think it's too big. 25. Something you're not wearing?Earrings. 26. Your favorite store?mmmm. Don't have one. 27. Your favorite color?Black. 28. When is the last time you laughed?Hahaha. I think I am laughing most of the time. 29. Last time you cried?14/2/ 2009. Because I had a fight. 30. Who will resend this?How am I supposed to know? 31. One place that I go to over and over?SCHOOL. 32. One person who emails me regularly?No one. I have a sad life. 33. Favorite place to eat?The coffee shop I had my dinner last night.
Sunday, February 15, 2009
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OH OOPS TYPO:I MEANT"I AM NOT GOING TO BECOME A PROSTITUTE OR ANYTHING.." Thank you for pointing out the mistake Tania.My headphones screwed up again! =.=
Friday, February 13, 2009
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If you can afford me___Katy PerryThis is going to be my theme song now. HAHA. I am being a prostitute or whatever lah. Just go listen to the lyrics, it's not talking about buying a person with money but with love. So please, don't go stating prices on my tag board. I am not for sale. (:And to you:Stop begging, I don't give out for charity. So my valentine's day!I have awesome plans. Even planned to date 2 people somemore! And they are people I love:1) My husband which is my Apple Laptop who has been forever faithful to me. We even have our iphone baby together! :D2) And work. So I am having a fling behind my husband's back. Yes. Hello work! you are my boyfrenemy! So went to Debra's house today to help her choose something and to collect something. And then Ariel came along too. Was funny. I started crapping my head off. Now Ariel shall be my official BICKERING FRIEND. :D :D :D Because he is damn fun to bicker with. I love bickering! HAHAHA! I can be annoying sometimes.But anyways, so because he was going somewhere, he gave me a lift home as well. (yay, don't need to walk... Can grow lots and lots of fats!) So whatever, just took a ride to the MRT stop. HAHA because I need to top up my card anyways. And guess what he gave me as Valentine's day gift?Mosquito repellant. Like WTF! I don't need it cause I rarely get mosquito bites. HAHA. So i gave him back his um very unique valentine's day gift. And I gave him the pineapple tarts on Debra's table. HAHAHA. HAHAHA. But ended up eating all of them. Ok anyways. Thank you to everyone who has wished me a happy valentine's day. May you have a happy one too. And I will definitely have a happy one with work. ._. LoL.
Thursday, February 12, 2009
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New York City__________Norah JonesHAHA, I have been in a jazzy mode these few days. So I have been listening to Norah Jones with the Peter Malick Group and fell in love with the whole album. It just makes me feel like I have gone to another city, where things are slow moving and not so fast paced. As in I feel like I am taking a break in some city. Like New York. I am kind of wishing that someone will scoop me up to a plane, and bring me to a quiet corner in a city, like in the middle of a suburb and urban area. And I want to sit in a pub, drink something non-alcoholic and hear the jazz play.That would be a good break from work. *wistful look* I just want to escape and go away.Anyways, I am SUPER SUPER HAPPY! Read this: I am happy, happy, HAPPPPPYYYYY! Why? Because damn you biology IA, hahaha, OUT OF MY SIGHT for this week at least. I completed my 2 IAs today. One at 4.30am and the other in class. I wish we do design every week. I hate hate hate writing the full report. I am screwed because I didn't state what kind of graph until I saw Hanh's paper. But whatever la, I am damn happy, I really want to nap now. (: Like sink into a SOUND SLEEP.Come away with me_____________Norah JonesSounds good. (: Anyways, I shall be lame and list my favorite subjects:1. Maths (shall be my favorite <3)>2. Geography!!! 3. Uh, economics? (cause it's starting to get interesting...)4. Chinese (at least we do LOVE stories.)5. English (getting damn -.-. Wish we can do something more interesting...Like shakespeare or something)6. Biology (it's interesting but then... eh not fair year 5 got to do ECOSYSTEMS. I WANNNT) And Valentine's day is coming, I am without a date. But to those who have a date. Here's a tip on how to communicate with like your blind date or whatever. I tried it out on a guy friend of mine (shhh he didn't know) and the results were positive. Ok women communicate-> insulting themselves as a joke. men communicate-> Insulting each other as a joke. And apparently we get offended by each other's joke, and the other party not knowing that they have offended us continues to offend us. BEARING THE RULE IN MIND:So my friend called me a no lifer that day.And then I turned the situation on him and then called him pathetic. Of course I meant it jokingly.JOKING THE NORMAL WAYA: You are a no lifer.Me: yeah I am, I don't like bluh bluh. Yes I have NO LIFE!His behavior with the rule:-> He replied immediately-> And ended off with "Take care"Without the rule:-> I have to bug him for a reply. Which I never did.-> Don't even say "bb".Now and I am just listing one example. Happened many times. HAPPY ADVANCED V-DAY!
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
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Damn tired.-> Bio IA (no I havent used the penknife to scrape it off my list yet)-> Prepare for another bio IA. (I might as well take a biology degree)-> EEEEEEEEEEE (Final draft on Feb 13... Um, and I have not even touched my 2nd yet?)-> World Literature. -> Chinese Courseworkso... DONT DISTURB MEEE!
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
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Was tagged again!Rules:It's harder than it looks! Copy to your own note, erase my answers, enter yours, and tag twenty people.Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real...nothing made up! If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers. You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question.1. What is your name : Amber (only crazy people will use YEW CHEN to answer this.) 2. A four Letter Word : Aims3. A boy's Name : Anthony (: 4. A girl's Name : Anne 5. An occupation : Architect6. A color : AMBER! (duh how obvious)7. Something you can wear : (errrr) Argyle socks! (so pretty!!!)9. A food : APPLE PIE!10. Something found in the bathroom: Acne Cream :D 11. A place : Amazon (BRING ME THERE PLEASE)12. A reason for being late : An emergency. 13. Something you'd shout : (so easy!!!) AHHHHHHHHHHHH! 14. A movie title : Aladdin. 15. Something you drink : Apple juice. 16. A musical group : A bullet for my valentine??? 17. An animal : Antelope <318. A street name : Amber Road (eh it really exists ok? There is even a condominum named One amber there!) 19. A type of car : (this is where I wish my name starts with M) Aston Martin20. The title of a song : Apologize
Monday, February 09, 2009
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The procrastinate a lot and burnt brain post. My resolutions to stay up late at night was foiled by a thing named vomit. So I vomited yes I did, which is why I did not go to school today. I think I vomit due to too much gas again. Yeah it's a one time thing and yeah because I stayed all the way up to 3am to try and do up my economics presentation but it was a real failure. There is this wonderful website named FACEBOOK that got me kaypohing around and then I chanced upon this photo of my friend and her bf pretending to kiss. And they look so cute together. I went like "AWWWW, so cute". HAHA. And I continued to poke around. So in the end, I managed to squeeze out a bit of stuff.After all, I was brain dead after doing maths (Because Vectors have to exist and I seriously do not like it. ANd you know me, if I don't know something I sit there and think and think and think till I can get the answer. Of course it does not happen during exams. That's why I take so long to do my work and also the fact that I don't like asking the teacher stuff unless I knew I tried.) and then biology worksheet (which made my mind go bust officially. I think 100 brain cells just died doing that worksheet) And so my brain has recharged halfway (great I am even slower than my iphone/ laptop) after my not very sound sleep because I could literally feel my head pounding when I am sleeping. And then I woke up and did economics presentation which made me stoned at it while having wonder girls playing in the background. And now that I am done with it, I am suffering from economics hangover. How? You ask me. I have words like "quotas", "tariffs", "free trade" and the list goes on stuck in my head. And I cannot get them out of my head. I am even using them in my usual speech. Freakkky. I shall freak my dad out later. Information overload. Lols. Now I understand the definition of that. And then I am going to prepare for maths test now. OMG, I am seriously scared for it la. HAHA. Never study for it. But luckily sir allows us to bring the formula sheet into the room. (: Reduces the stress. Nevermind I shall review it later. Yeah I shall nap now. Seriously, I cannot store anymore information anymore! After dinner, the dreaded biology IA. And I am done. Chinese Test too! OMG. And I shall do one Chinese essay. And study for Chinese test lah. Aiyah. Must work harder for Chinese. Shit chinese essayS. Oh wells. Shall try to negotiate with her. And what else do I have? World lit, EE, ToK. *collapses* Can someone just use your car and bang me down now? Gosh, I wish I am doing A'levels. Tougher syllabus but less work. Or rather they may overload you with like 234567890 test papers but then no one cares if you do them or not. (I think. A level people don't bash me up!) But GP still sounds scary. Great DJ________The Ting TingsDon't ask me why but it reminds me of APPLES AND BANANAS SONG! HAHA. And it was stuck in my head the whole day... Aiyah shut up amber, bye bye.!Oh and I managed to sleep a very sound 15 minutes. (: or maybe :(. HAHA. And then I took out my old TK notes and copied the notes. HAHA. OMG, I am such a cheater bug. HAHA. But saves time anyways. HAHA. So yeah did it in like 10 minutes together with the notes given in school of course. HAHA.And here's a sudden thought, I just went through some blogs and recalled how to sing the TK school song. LOLS. I still cannot get use to the ACS school song somehow. Like I still continuously stumble over lyrics. LOLS. (don't get me wrong. I do like ACS ok? Like I actually have more friends here. ) But TK is better. (as in the environment, environment NOT facilities)And I am doing something really sadistic right now. I love it and I am giving that smile when I am doing it. I am using my penknife....to slash....the stuff that I have completed on my work list. Ok lah, sorry for the scare, I won't ever cut myself, don't worry, too timid.... You guys should really try that you know... It's symbolic and releases a lot of stress! Best of all, it's a 1) Non-emo method2) You won't hurt yourself except your to-do list3) Makes you feel very happy about your accomplishment of finishing work. HAHA!. - GREAT I SOUND PSYCHOTIC NOW LAH. (OMG almost deleted the whole post!!!) By today, I MUST SADISTICALLY CANCEL AND SCRAPE OFF MY BIOLOGY IA USING A PENKNIFE. I don't care. Must must must. Don't want to see you on my worklist anymore you nincompoop biology. HMPH. HAHA.
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Je T'aime Plus Que Tout________Ronan Keating and Cecilia CaraOh my, sorry for not updating. I was ill, ill and ill. And there is work, work and more work. It's never ending. I am blogging now because it seems like the only interesting to do and I am feeling really bored. Which reminds me on how I have yet to put my BangKok pictures up on other blog yet. Wow, I am really slow. Rather I should say busy. Aiyah. I really don't want to go to school. So sian. AHAHA. With the stupid workload, I rather just stay at home. Just like holidays. Right now, even TK's a test a day makes the F9 go away system seems much more enjoyable than my workload. Which is absolutely scary. And of course I am sure all IB students share the same pain as I do right now. I bet another 100 over IB students are writing the same stuff on their blogs now complaining about how they never got enough rest and bluh bluh bluh. MEH. Now O'levels seems like the easiest thing to do. Seems like kindergarten work now. :( And PSLE is probably for like fetuses to do. HAHA. A lot of people are really going to bash me up. HAHAH.The only interesting thing that happened today was that I did work till I forgot to bathe. Too engrossed I suppose. HAHA. Epic failure. Fancy forgetting to bathe. But I bathe already now. And I am doing up some economics presentation. D better be serious about the presentation or I will really kill myself on Tuesday if she doesn't do it. Because I am doing the presentation first and leaving bio IA for later. Actually I don't even dare to start on BIO IA. HAHA because my magic ball 8 said that I will fail. LOL. I don't care, I shall anyhow do up the presentation, so tired. Anyways it's group work. The guys shall either take it or leave it. Honestly that's not my top priority now, as long as I did my pert. The end. And Saturday is the dreaded V-day. (And no I have no one to go out with so I decided to pamper myself. HAHA.) Some people actually have stuff to fret about V-day whereas people like me (single and happy) cannot even be bothered about V-day. But then again, I might MIGHT be meeting my old friend. But who knows, he might have something on too. Ah anyways, I bet they will load us with work too. And they might probably call our work "Valentine's day special" just like how I got "Year 6 New Year's special" assignment from mr. chia when I came back to school and Mr. Chin calls our homework "Homejoy"- all for the purpose of making our work sound more joyful and festive like. I thank them actually I think setting homework is not easy too. Work will still be work. And especially for IB students, work is a sensitive topic.I really don't know what I am talking about.
Saturday, February 07, 2009
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And since I was tagged on facebook again. I shall do the quiz. Thank you HL for tagging me. This is the quiz I have been hoping someone will tag me for it. So thanks hian lee. As usual, if you want to do it then tag yourself. Can't be bothered to tag people.Ok here it goes:1. Put your iTunes/Napster/Zune Player/WinAmp/etc on shuffle.2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!4. Tag 10 or more friends who might enjoy doing this as well as the person you got it from.IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY?Sideman strut long. (LOLS??? WTF) HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?If the world has no fairytale- Janice(errr... then I will still be here?)WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?Who?- some korean person(very true... who do I like? No one? So who to set a standard??) HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?Stop and stare- one republic (at super hot buff guys at ECP) WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?Apologize- One republic(OH MY GOSH. I am so sorry thats not my life purpose)WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?Jasmin- Yui Makino(errrr) WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?My cookie can- Janice(LOLS!!!!) WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?Nobody- Wonder Girls(OMG. I think that's quite true.) WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?Remember- DBSK(uhhh.... And what do I remember huh?)WHAT IS 2 + 2?Insa- Kim Jae Joong(Hey look! "Insa" is 4 letters!!!)WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?Show me your love- DBSK and Super Junior(Hmm... Good song choice!!!) WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?Who am I- Casting Crown(sweet) WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?Dreaming out loud- One Republic(uhhhh...) WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?Rinne Rondo- On/ Off(How tragic....) WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?Snowflakes- White Apple Tree(Hmm, pretty good choice too..) WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?Miracle- Paramore(Oh my gosh, people will be popping champagne when I die??)WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?The best damn thing- Avril LavigneLOLs. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?With me- Sum 41 (Yes, I hate commitments.) WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?Kiss of Monochrome- Sid(errr? Too bad it's not Im not wearing underwear today..) WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?My friend- YUI(reasonable but not really...)WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?Stay here tonight... o.o o.o o.o (NOOOOOOOOOO) WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?ai shen guo zuo ren- Janice To someone I respect:I won't change you for anyone really. You are the best of the best. Thank you for what you have done. Thank you for encouraging me and consoling me. You gave me another hope. Thanks. And I respect you a lot really.
Thursday, February 05, 2009
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And today, thanks to the stress from Biology IA, I broke down 3 times because I was so scared. I am such a scaredy cat nowadays. I guess because IB makes O'levels seems like a huggable and cute teddy bear. HAHA. Indeed, I want to swing back to my O'levels and do O'levels one more time. Sounds fun. But then I will still abolish hateful sciences. But science is really ok when Mr. Tan Kee Hoe is your Chemistry teacher (he is awesome I tell you) and when Mr. Foo and Mrs. Goh are your Physics teacher (At least they are patient and not intimidating.) I screwed my biology IA badly. I think many others did too. I don't know. I obviously screw up mine and I don't know how to write my report for just 1 reading. I cannot process the information at all! But SMASH! saved the day with a smashing song! So I shall upload it here, Should anyone feel frustrated and depressed or whatever negative feelings you guys should listen to this song. Very inspiring!
Wednesday, February 04, 2009
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Sorry if this post is too depressing. I guess I need some form of release or so. Stars shining out____________Olivia LufkinAt times like this, the best solace is to seek solace in Olivia Lufkin's songs. And I will just keep on playing and playing her music until all is settled. As crazy as this seems, (I know I never talked to Olivia before) I seem to share a bond with Olivia. When I am happy, I listen to her happy songs. When I am sad, I listen to her sad songs. Both of us seem to have the same viewpoints about life and everything else. Not everyone can appreciate her songs but she is really good to me. And I will fork out my money to buy her CDs. When I have the money, that is.Anyways today is the kind of day where you know before you sleep and after you wake up, you will have a hunch that it is going to be a bad day. Yes today is such a day. Before sleeping, since I was down with a fever, I thought that I should not go to school because I am ill right? So yeah, then I checked my timetable- Geography (going through fieldwork), biology in the midst of my free periods (which filled me with absolute dread), maths (which is ok), english (OMG BORING). And I decided to go to school so as not to miss out. And this morning I woke up with dread flowing in my bloodstream. Yes the kind of dread that makes you not want to wake up and go to school. So I told my parents that I want to sleep in. Hopefully, I will wake up with a super high fever and I can skip school for the day totally. HAHA. Because I was so filled with dread.And my hunch came true, indeed today was one day filled with nothing but negative stuff. Yes. And I am going to rant it all out here because I am annoyed and upset over the thingS that happened today. Because if others can rant, so can I. I am part of the ranting club too. 1) I got scolded for no reason. Yes scolded for no reason. Like a certain someone received an important phone call. And then I was there also lah. So I was like whatever, it's other people's phone call, I don't give a bloody heck care about what the person is talking about right? So yeah, I continued doing the stuff I was doing. And then the certain person got off the phone, looked at me, happened that I was looking at the direction the person was at. And I never said anything. NEVER. And was NOT GOING to. Because I am not so kaypoh. And guess what happened? I GOT SNAPPED AT!!! Talk about being at the wrong place at the wrong time. Like wtf. And so that person continued to put on a sulky face until someone else comes in and guess what happens? The person cheered up all of a sudden as if like being in the same room with me is like the worst thing ever. WTF right? And despite the fact that it is out of a pissed mode, I don't think I deserve a snap. Like wtf, so unfair. HMPH. 2) And then as many of you would have known. I got a damn freaking 1 for biology. As those of you who don't know, a grade 1 is the LOWEST of all grades equivalent to a freaking F9 for O levels. YES. F9 for a 25/36. OMG, at least give me a 2/3 right? A 1 looks soooo freaking damn UGLY. I don't care even if it's just homework. I TRIED MY BEST AND I STILL GOT A FREAKING DAMN 1. If I did not do my best, if I was like who I was, never listen in class, WILL I CARE? NOOO. Of course not. I listened in class, with enthusiasm somemore. And mind you, this is not some good branded school that comes up with killer papers ok? Not to mention, the questions were easy. Ok lah, I was sick on that day and I rushed through it. Then again people are going to say that I am giving poor excuses like SOMEONE said I did on monday. I really should brush up on my lying skills.And yes, AMBER LIM, instead of whining your puny head off, go do something about it. As if ranting will solve anything at all. I am living by that now. Just something to get me through this year. Something that TW said. Grumbling don't help only action would. So Amber Lim, get up and face the problem, stop cowering and face up to reality. This is reality. Getting a 1 is reality, face it and do something about it. 3) And to a certain different person, I think I have tolerated enough of your nonsensical attitude. I can rant a whole page about you but I decided not to for certain reasons. And no, the person does not have an occupation of a teacher or a staff in school or whatever. And I am not going to say who. And tomorrow is IA day. I shall do my best again. Hopefully this time with better results than all previous IAs. I believe I can do it. Lord, help me please. (and what kind of plea is that huh?) Must do my best. Yes, yes. On a lighter note, 5 ways to boost your energy:Work in a work-out. Eat protein. Take a three-minute meditation break. Try self-acupressure.See the light.
Monday, February 02, 2009
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This love_______Big BangTranslation because I feel like it: Today is different from other daysPointlessly I get more upset.I miss you.And now these words, turned into words I can't say.Now I can't even watched over you, it's really the end.Thinking back, I was really stupid.Pointlessly waiting, I just misunderstood.You have a [boy/girl friend] I know that.Why do you do that? I like you more.My friends say I am stupid.They say what so good about you and snap out of it.They said you just played with me. I don't care, who cares?Just being able to see you, I am happy.This love will never again love.I won't do it.I look at myself and ask why am I so stupid.This love is already gone, not being able to catch it, cause it vanished.To the person who won't ever come back.Fly far, far behind the clouds.No more of you in my heart.This is like one minus one.[ ] is your birthday.All alone, alone I am falling in love shady.Do you remember one night in front of your house, I was nearly there, my heart waiting, holding a bunch of roses.My heart already lessened, I waited in the rain, but you didn't come.Then I was able to sort my feelings for you.Someone must be out there willing to comfort me.Without even knowing that, I was confused.And again, I became alone.What am I supposed to do?The fact that I love you.I feel like I've sinned, I am so stressed right now.To your boy/girl friend,I want to find him/ her and tell him/her,"We can't do this!"Now I am crazy without you, fool me.This love now trying to forget, with time it will go away.with memories it is evident, why my head hurts?This love, so weak, too young to say that it is love.The memories and the past,fly far, far behind the clouds.hey _, look at me.After you left, it ain't the same.I am not what I used to be. It hurts so much you know?Crazy World_________Anna Tsuchiya ft A.II love this song. Reminds me of my "I LOVE NAMIE AMURO" Days. HAHAHA. I love the heart shape that is drawn on her cheek. It's so cute. But sighs, she has smooth skin, unlike me. Oh wells. I will stop blogging here.I am so tired.
Sunday, February 01, 2009
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The one about the teeth obsession So the progress from OO to the progress to EE has certainly made a BIG HUGE difference to make my life sooo much better. I must take a mirror, and mouth a thank you to my right wisdom tooth. Oh and must not forget to acknowledge the presence of the hellish, excruciating pain that the left side (I am exaggerating for emphasis. Oh wait and listing too =.=) is causing me too and hence making my right tooth painful now because I chew everything there. Oh talk about chewing! Girls, don’t chew too much hard chewy rubbery food. Like chewing gum, causes a very ugly jaw line. I am not lying or telling any Grandmother’s story. That’s what I read from a botox brochure. And I read it because I was damn bored while waiting for my dad, not because I want to go for botox. But the brochure was really convincing. Jawline turns from this [ ] to this []. But it’s not permanent. Anyways, it’s so disgusting. Yucks. So anyways, my dad was like saying I need to put braces because my teeth look like a certain cartoon character now (answer: BUGS BUNNY). *sad face, sad face* And the worse part is that I used to have STRAIGHT NICE TEETH. Like even when I asked the dentist if I needed to put any braces or not. They were all like,”uhhhh… are you mad?” And now, DOCTORS ARE ASKING ME TO PUT BRACES!!! Even my own dad who thinks that braces are a total absolute waste of time and money asked me to put it! *demoralized* Now I am really going to look like ugly betty, putting braces at such an old age. HAHA. Then again, if you see my teeth’s bottom row, one teeth is protruding so badly, it’s so ugh. Luckily when I smile, you don’t see that bottom row. Then again, I cannot smile because the moment I smile, I will wince. So yes, after extracting wisdom tooth, I think I need to put on braces. Yucks. Can anyone tell me how is it like? I hear you cannot kiss if you put braces (ah whatever who cares? Not that I am going to kiss anyone) Ok I hear that you cut your tongue very easily and that you cannot eat on the first few days or whatever. CAN ANYONE TELL ME? Those who wear braces before. Please and thanks. HAHA. And if I ever wear braces, I shall get glow in the dark color. HAHAHA and freak everyone out by smiling in the dark. HAHAHA. Or even better, every teeth different colored bands. HAHAHA. Then again, I may not be getting it so don’t talk too much! AIyah just give me advice lah. Thanks! The one about work and work and work Aish I really don’t feel like doing work anymore. EE is a pain in the ass. I am getting so sick of coursework and everything I wished I went on to A levels and did horrible GP and comprehension. Then again, at the thought of that, I think that coursework seems much better than those two. What can I do? My England is bad mahhhhh. (I just proved my point hor?) HAHA. Aiyah O levels is still the best thing ever. PSLE sucks. And university is also like this. Sighs. But then again, it’s practical. It sucks according to my dad who told me his friend did science in university and then end up as immigration officer. Sighs. So what’s the point of specialization huh? Not that I am smart enough to become a professor (not that I want so boring!) or a geologist (OMG that’s so fun). As to what course I want to take in university? Geography sounds like the best thing ever! HAHAH. I am a geography addict. Geography is my drugs. If only there is a course that makes you learns 12 languages at one go, I am going to pick that course. Of course, there is no such thing and I just got to be 80 before I know how to even speak 5 languages. How tragic. Ok dear readers, I shall stop blogging here. See, 3 blog posts within 3 days. I am so nice. HAHAHA*rambles a whole load of self praise crap* Oh and Mr. Olwande is really going to scream in agony and workload when everyone passes up their EE draft 2 to him. Sorry lah teachers, the only option is to stop loading us with so much stuff to do so you and I don’t work our asses off. See it’s a win-win situation. HAHAH. Maybe I should write A MODEST PROPOSAL: To ensure that students don’t become living dead at the end of IB. Oh and talking about the modest proposal. It’s terribly boring, gory, disgusting and I ABHOR IT. I don’t see the big deal about it really I mean the literature part of it. I cannot believe we spent like 2 periods talking about one paragraph!!! Sighs. I appreciate poon poon now. *rattles on about nostalgia* Ok ok BYE! --------------UPDATED----------- The one about a cute guy So for 2 days my family and I have been eating at the same place. Because the food suits us, so we ate there for the past 2 days. And then for the past 2 days I have been seeing a cute guy. Haha. I know he is not an Asian guy but still he is quite hot. AHAHA. No I don’t have a crush on him on anything. Just that he is cute. XD The one about some bitch So my neighbour is such a bitch. MAID IS NOT HUMAN BEING IS IT? Scold and scold and scold. It’s not her fault that she steamed your clothes 3 minutes longer right? Ok yes it’s her fault but scold for what? As if scolding will solve the damage. Since you are so rich to hire a maid, buy branded clothes, drive a Mercedes I am sure damaging one clothing won’t hurt your finances much will it, you bitch. And that serves you right you rich bitch. Serves you right for not doing your own housework. Since you know you got to steam it for 2 minutes then why don’t you do it yourself??? Stupid. And if yiou don’t know how to do it then don’t scold, disturb all the neighbours, you unethical nasty rich animal.
